Roseline

Just recently, I realized that somewhere along in my life, seeds against having children were sown in my heart. Maybe the seeds were sown growing up and hearing how kids “get on your nerves”. Or maybe it was sown when my cousin became pregnant at 14 and I saw how her life changed. Whatever the source, the seeds were sown, took root and grew into this tree that I didn’t even really know about. As a teen and in my 20’s, I recall saying and thinking that I didn’t want children. In my 30’s, motherhood and marriage was some vague feeling that I tucked away, given the father/husband prospects in my life at that time. Besides, I had a ton of “returnable” nieces and nephews so I was fine. With a tree I was not fully aware of firmly in place, I was ok about not having children. In my 40’s the Lord found me and saved me and I began to learn what His Word says. I learned who I am, what I can have and received all the love, protection, healing, deliverance, joy, prosperity and peace that I needed! During this time, for the first time in my life I learned that children are a gift from the Lord! (Psalm 127:3, NLT) The Word also says that every plant planted that the heavenly Father did not plant will be rooted out. (Matthew 15:13, KJV)

My “I don’t want no kids” tree was rooted out in Port au Prince, Haiti. I was recently there with an organization called Project Eden, on an inaugural trip to eradicate poverty in that nation. As the team waited in Miami for the flight to Port au Prince, each person met one-on-one with our leader, Deloris to tell her what we expected to get out of the trip. When my turn came, I told her that I wanted to use my gifts for administration and helps in whatever capacity needed. And then I began to cry as I told her about a dream that I had the day before. I dreamed that I was in Haiti at an orphanage and all these little girls surrounded me as I gave them candy. I told her that I just wanted to meet the girls at the orphanage that we planned to visit and hug them.

When we got to the orphanage on Day 6 of the trip, I met the girls. They didn’t surround me as they had in the dream, but a team member noticed that one in particular was following me around. She was adorable and I took a picture with her. I didn’t get her name but she stole my heart. I thought about her everyday and wondered what it would be like to be her mother. I even took it further and wondered what it would be like to have the whole package, this little girl AND a husband. I don’t recall ever feeling this way before.

I returned home with an open heart, a renewed mind, and determination. I asked around and researched and finally found the name of the organization that runs the orphanage. After a few emails and phone calls, I identified the little girl in the picture and became her sponsor. Her name is Roseline. I look forward to getting to know her. I’ll keep everyone posted. Now about this husband…..




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